riding the emotional rollercoaster

Wow, yesterday was a rough day.  I spent a great deal of it in tears, as my life (and it’s problems) seemed to be looming large.  I think the reason everything felt so big and unmanageable is because of the pain in my feet.  I’m over the majority of the aches from beginning to exercise but the blisters on my feet are something different altogether.  One of them is now infected and it’s incredibly painful.  Last night I walked at a very slow pace, with a limp and just bawled all the way home thinking about how I can’t do anything.  I’m better now after a good night’s sleep and some doctoring of the blisters.  They are feeling better.

I’m really surprised that this journey into fitness-land has been so emotional.  One minute I’m feeling optimistic and positive, the next I’m sobbing in the shower.  It’s made everything in my life seems so much more pressing and hard and I can only hope as I get stronger that I’ll feel better able to cope.  Until that time comes I really appreciate all the supportive vibes/words coming my way.  It helps to know that someone thinks I can do this, even when I don’t.

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8 Comments »

  1. Bridge Said:

    It gets easier! I promise!

    Since you started this little program I am trying to be good too. Just so you know. I’ve been drinking lots of water and am bringing in exercise again. I am jealous of you having a trainer. LOL. I need someone to get me in shape!

  2. Teresa Said:

    Karen–I KNOW you can do this. I, too, understand the emotions of this journey we are on. Part of what makes it hard (emotionally and physically) is that we are just thrown into it. Going from not much exercise to at least 12 hours per week can cause some serious pain. You are not alone either. I see it in myself and in the eyes of my teammates. One particular teammate looked pretty green yesterday during out water workout and I could tell just from the look on his face that he was in emotional and physical pain and was likely wondering what the hell he had gotten himself into. Hang in there!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!

  3. Nancy Said:

    I am not at all surprised that this journey has been emotional. Believe me, I understand. I am so proud of you for how hard you are working. Your are amazing!

  4. Cricket Said:

    Karen! You keep going. I may not be working out but you inspire me to keep going. I am encountering frustrations and the “I am going to be a bad mommie bit”. I know about crying in the shower. We will get through this! You keep going and I am right behind you. I am looking forward to getting into shape. Karen if you can do it I can do it! You keep going! And for feet sometimes bags of ice wrapped in a washcloth help numb the pain! And Motrin. Oh good heavens above how I now love Motrin!!

  5. Karen…I wish I could do more for you than be a cheerleader. My heart hurts for you. But, I know you’ve got this in you. I know you can do this. I am so proud of you! Keep on Keeping on…. *sings* Have faith in you and the things you do….

  6. mok Said:

    This is hard for me to know, but I know you will be a stronger more in controll person because you are doing this. I can’t tell you how many days I cry in the shower. It stinks, but its a nice pressure outlet and helps me get through another day. I fee your blister pain. Mine are itching so bad I can’t sleep.

  7. jess Said:

    hugs for karen! hugs for karen!

    this sounds so lame, so i hope you’ll forgive me: the hardest things we do in life are those that are most worth it.

    you can do this.

    xoxo

  8. MaryEllen Said:

    Nothing is impossible, unless we give up. You have it in you to succeed! You are awesome! This will be so worth it in the end! You will grow and become stronger in ways you cannot even imagine, and not just physically. You have my support and love!


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