Archive for June, 2008

before & after goodness

Here is my visual weight loss progression:

October 2007 (301 lbs)

December 2007 (271 lbs)

May 6, 2008

this picture is lost! 😦

June 27, 2008 (242 lbs)


Another weightloss competition completed!

Last October I began my journey to a more fit & svelte me by joining a weight loss competition at my local gym, the Sports Academy. That competition lasted 10 weeks and I lost 29 lbs. This May they began another competition, this time for 8 weeks, and today was the last day.

I know that I’ve improved by leaps and bounds since that October morning when I officially tipped the scale at 301 lbs. I know that I can do more now, I feel better and I’m stronger than I was but sometimes, when I’m in the middle of a particularly hard workout, I still feel like the fattest, slowest, grossest, ginormous girl around. It’s been hard to get through those days. Those are the days that I wonder when or if I’ll ever feel good about what I’ve done. I know that changing my internal body image takes more than just changing my body and I’m still working on not feeling like that 301 lb girl.

But, today is not one of those days. This morning we had our final weigh in and while I didn’t lose as much this week as I’d liked to have, I still lost a little bit more. I’ve come just a little bit further. I’m feeling just a little bit better and this is what will keep me moving in the right direction.

So here are my final stastics for the Ultimate Loser III competition:

Starting weight: 270.8 lbs
Ending weight: 242 lbs
Total lost: 28.8 lbs

Total Lost since October ’07: 59 lbs — only 80+ more to go!

Wind Caves

Today we had our last real group workout for this Ultimate Loser incarnation.  Tomorrow it’ll all be about weighing, measuring and taking pictures.  It’s been a good week, hard but good and today was the same.  We went up Logan canyon to hike up to the wind caves.  It’s a 1.9 mile hike one way and we only had an hour so we didn’t make it.  I was waaaayyyy behind everyone else but that spared them my extreme huffing & puffing as I hauled myself up the mountain.  At one point we ran into a moose which was very disconcerting.  He was in the middle of the trail and just wandered off but I was still very aware of where he was and was always looking for good hiding places should it decide it didn’t want me there.  All in all it was a good hike and I burned 600 calories.  I can’t say I’m dying to try it again though.  It really hurt me knees coming down the trail and I’m still feeling it.  I’m gonna have to ice them tonight.  Hiking is not my favorite thing to do but I think I can survive it much better than I could before.  I’m just not a nature girl.  Yeah, I know that sounds terrible but my idea of hell involves a mountain trail, a tent and a campfire.

I stood on the scale this morning before I left for the hike and it looks like I might be up a few pounds since last week.  I have no idea how this is possible as I’ve been working my ass off (haha) and the thought of gaining on my final weigh in has me panicked.  I’m eating only the bare requirement of calories today, avoiding water, trying to make all my food choices high in fiber and I’ll be done eating by 5 pm.  I’m also thinking that I should hit the steam room tomorrow morning, but as my friend Jen F. pointed out, then I’ll be all sweaty in my ‘after’ picture.  We’ll have to see if I think I can repair the steam room damage to my appearance in a timely and convenient manner at the gym.  If I can do it the steam room is a definite must!

hikin’ & dancin’

Last night my 2 very lovely friends, Michelle & Lisa, took me on a hike along the Bonneville Shoreline trail for my birthday.  I was a little worried since I had climbed a billion stairs that morning but it turned out to be just what I needed to keep my joints loose and get the extra calorie burn I needed for the day.  It was a fun little hike and I think it would be the perfect way to do something active but relaxing on a Sunday afternoon.  I’m happy that Chelle shared the trail with me and that she and Lisa were such good company.

This morning I got up around 5:15 and headed to the gym to get in some time on the treadmill before our class.  Alissa had arranged for an instructor to come teach our group a Hip Hop aerobics class at 6.  I was aware that I lack certain dance skillz but wowzers! was I bad-ad-ad!  I’m waving good-bye to that dream of staring in a MTV hip hop video.  Bye, bye.  Still, the instructor, Michelle, was a blast and the Hip Hop Hustle class was really fun.  We learned a lot of dance moves and then she had us put them together into dance combinations.  It’s funny how the stuff I couldn’t get was pretty easy but when the moves were in a fast paced dance combination I was hopeless.  I also was waaaayyyy too self conscious to throw in much hip thrusting, booty shaking and gangsta attitude into my “dancing”.  I did however sweat bullets and had a lot of fun.  I wish this was a class that was offered regularly.  It is something that I might even be convinced to pay the $50 a month required to maintain my membership at the Sports Academy for.

my old nemesis revisited

Today I managed to get to the gym by 5:10 and I felt refreshed after a lovely nights sleep. The difference? Yesterday when I got home all the screens for my window were leaning against my front door. I was able to put them in all the windows of my stifling upstairs apartment and the lovely canyon breeze kept things cool and infinitely sleepable all night long.

Today Alissa took us all up to Romney stadium again and we started off things by running up and down all the lines on the football field. I had no idea that the surface of the field was so soft and springy. I was worried that it was the perfect softness for rolling my ankle and wondered how football players don’t sprain things more often. I would imagine that the ground has been specially formulated to do the least amount of injury but I was still a little worried. After that and some arm work we then had 40 minutes to walk up and down all the stairs in the stadium. I had thought I’d managed to avoid this wonderful exercise. They didn’t have us do it for a challenge this go around and the day I missed class was the day they had done some stairs at the stadium. No such luck though! I cannot express in strong enough terms how completely miserable I was climbing all those stairs. I did manage to do it faster and I didn’t vomit but the process was less than happy for me.

I’ve concluded after 8 months of exercising that the ‘runners high’ people speak of is a big fat myth. I suspect it’s a myth put forward by fit people to make the slothful feel inadequate but I don’t have proof. I’ve yet to feel happy and good while exercising. Mostly I feel grumpy and the degree of grumpiness runs from annoyed to fuming mad. Today I was nearer the fuming side of the spectrum. I wish I could feel happy like a cool spring morning while burning the pounds away but alas… it’s not meant to be! The thing that keeps me going in spite of hating the whole exercise thing is that I know in the long run I’ll be really really happy that I’ve done it. And for now that hope is what keeps me going.

triathlon lite

Today was an er-er-early morning! I’ve been trying to get to the gym as close to 5 am as possible this whole time but it seems a great deal earlier when your required to be there at 5. It also doesn’t help that I’ve been finding it challenging to fall asleep at 10:30. You would think I could considering all the early mornings. If I was to go to bed at say 8 I’d be fine but there is something about 9 pm that causes me to catch a second wind and then I’m doomed!

Alissa had warned us that we’d be doing a triathlon and I had the whole weekend to stew about it. In all the morning called for us to jog 3 miles, bike 12.5 miles and swim 6 laps (250 yds) and it took me the entire 2 hours to finish it. Forget all the rhapsodizing I did about jogging a 12 minute mile. It took me 60 minutes to finish 3 miles. We ran from the SA to Romney stadium and back and the addition of the slight up-hilled nature of the run completely set me back. It took me about 40 minutes to finish the biking (on a stationary bike) and then I was able to do the swimming laps in about 10 minutes. It wasn’t nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be. I think I could have been faster running too but Alissa waited for me at the stadium and went back with me (because I was in a slo-pokey last place!). It was too intimidating to try and run with her right there and I am way too contrary so I didn’t really push it like I should have going back. I suspect I could have done quite a bit better if I’d been on my own. I was very deeply in last place by the time I finished the running but was able to catch up on the bike so I finished around the same time as most of the team (thank you Offspring, Rooney, MGMT, Foo Fighters, She Wants Revenge, etc for supplying my ipod with the necessary biking beats!). I was pretty sure after that first hour that I was going to be the big stinkin’ loser of the morning so it’s nice that I was able to turn it around. I’d probably be willing to try this again and it would be interesting to see if I could complete things faster. As it stands though I won’t be doing an 5k’s anytime soon!

todays weigh in

I made it to the end of the week. Yea! Now I’ve got to really focus and work extra hard so I can make the final week of this competition count.  Here’s hoping for a huge final number.

Starting Weight: 271 lbs
Current Weight: 245 lbs
Total Lost: 26–only 1 more to go to hit 10%
Total Lost (this week): 3 lbs

regrouping in progress

Well, I’m still ‘bad attitude girl’ at the gym but it’s getting better. I think what is happening is the result of too many hard & stressful things culminating at once. Work has been very busy and while it’s nothing I can’t handle, when you add storytime weather cancellations, 2+ hours of working out a day, an apartment still full of half empty boxes, 2 weeks of laundry and dishes piling up and strict calorie counting… something had to give. Evidently what gave was my ability to keep my stress under wraps in public (that and a lovely herpes out break on my face!). That kind of outburst from me, in a public forum, is rare (thank the stars above) but it was also really embarrassing and going back to class on Wednesday was h.a.r.d. I’m just hoping that this weekend I can decompress and regroup so I can end this weigh loss challenge on a positive note.

As for what we’ve been working on in our morning workouts… Alissa has been having usarrive to class at 5:30 every morning and ‘run’ a mile before our other activities. For me this translates to jogging a bit and walking the rest briskly. Last night I went to work out and decided to up the ante for myself on the treadmill. I jogged 30-45 seconds of every 2 minutes for 30 minutes. The fact that I could was amazing and so this morning I tried very hard to jog as much of every other lap of the 2 miles Alissa assigned as I could. As a result I clocked an @ 12 minute mile. Compared to the 23 minute mile I could do in October this is something to celebrate. She then had us ride 10 miles on the stationary bikes (yes the same bikes I had a meltdown over on Tuesday). I won’t say that it was fun but I will say that I was able to do it and right now that is saying something big.

Beginning next Monday we’re starting class at 5 am and will be working out for 2 hours with Alissa. We’re starting out by participating in a mini triathlon. I suspect that means we’ll be swimming yet to be determined laps, ‘running’ 3 miles and biking 11 miles. I’m soooo looking forward to that!

Bad Week

I’m having a amazingly craptacular week.  I’m feeling lonely, sad, huge, slow and tired which does not lead to a good attitude.  Unfortunately a bad attitude is what I’ve been taking to the gym this week.  Tuesday morning I had a come apart when I couldn’t get a stationary bike seat adjusted to the right height.  It involved tears, kicking and some choice words.  I’m completely embarrassed about it especially since it was witnessed by the entire gym.  Things just are not going well.


Swim Challenge

Well, I think I’ve proved to myself that I can swim when necessary.  Last night I went to the gym to meet with my fellow team member, Billy.  He has been participating in triathlons for the last 4 or 5 years and has worked on his swimming techniques.  Up until now I have maintained that I’m a terrible swimmer but Billy gave me some great tips about streamlining my body and how to breathe.  He also told me that some people swim with their legs and some with their arms and that is okay.  I’m a arm swimmer and once I understood that my kicking wasn’t so important I was able to relax… a lot!  It also turns out that I’m really bouyant and that the biggest reason for kicking is to keep your self afloat.  Staying afloat isn’t my biggest worry (I suspect my fat rolls are excellent floaties) so I just needed to work on making my stroke more streamlined.

This morning when we got to the pool our challenge was, as a team, to swim 1 mile.  That was 36 laps in the pool.  Each team member needed to swim at least 3 laps of the mile and so we worked it out to use our Billy advantage.  He swam every other lap and the rest of use took turns getting our 3 laps in.  And how did I do?  Pretty well.  I feel really good about my performance.  I didn’t hold us back and in fact really held up my part of the effort.  Our team won the competition (thanks Billy!) and it was nice to know that I had given 100% of my effort on this.  I think I’m going to have to make swimming a regular part of my exercise routine.  It feels pretty good to know that it is something that I have the potential to do well at.  I’d say I can see a triathlon in my future but lets face it… I will never be a biker.

Our team won 35$ gift certificates to use towards a massage (never gonna happen–too many ‘don’t touch my fat body’ issues) or a facial/wax/mani/pedi.  I don’t know what I’ll do yet.  I’m not very comfortable with any of these things.  We’ll just have to see.

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