Archive for January, 2009

Back (by popular request?)

Okay, so by not posting here on my bit of the inter-webs, I’ve kinda bit my self in the ass. It turns out that, while I might fail (cluing the whole big wide world of BFL readers about how much I suck) by blogging during the hard times timesl, I will fail if I hide away and don’t tell what’s going on.

Yes, I’ve been hiding from you all and gaining weight at the same time. I’m completely angry with myself because, yet again, I get to re-lose 20 pounds that I’d already lost. This will be the second time to lose pounds 265ish to 245ish. Why, oh why, I did this to my poor, slow, jiggly body is a mystery in the bright light of day. However, under cover of dark snow clouds and cold polluted air, it makes perfect sense–I needed those pizzas!

So, now I’ve got to get down and busy again.

  1. First step, renew my rec. center membership for 2009. I work for a city and can use their recreation center for free. All it will take is a quick visit to the city recorder to my pass re-newed. You think that would be easy as (pizza) pie, but alas, I have put it off.
  2. The next step is to begin waking up at a6 am again. I have a membership to Planet Fitness and can go there in the mornings to get my blood flowing. I have big plans with my friend, Teresa, to meet at PF 3x’s a week. It’ll then be up to me to get there the other 2 mornings.
  3. I’ve signed up to participate in early morning boot camp with my Michelle friend in February. We’ll be training with Shelly who was one of my trainers in the last Ultimate Loser thing and I really like here. It will be nice to have a organized class that I’m committed to participating in. Boot camp is a lot like Ultimate Loser just with fit people so I know I can do it. I’ll just have to prepare myself to be the fattest, slowest girl in the class. Maybe if I up the personality I can overcompensate for my inability to crab walk. It’s worth a try.
  4. I also want to do some outdoor activities on Saturdays and Sundays. I miss my morning hikes with Teresa & Josh and my Sunday afternoon walks with Teresa. Even if I go alone, I know I would enjoy doing this! So I must resist the inextricable pull of my flannel frog sheets, brave the cold and enjoy the greater Cache Valley area! Maybe if I change to the slippy, cool, white cotton sheets of summer my bed will be less appealing.

    I went on a 1.5 hour walk with my friend, Chelle, last Friday morning and loved it. I don’t know why I forget that. In the moment of those walks I really enjoy myself but I’ve got some sort of brain implant that blocks those positive memories and instead send me a constant feed of tired, hungry and general wussiness. It’s time to take my memories back and make the great outdoors my bitch!

In any case I’m back, blogging away as I stumble and fall (but ultimately get back up and keep plodding away) along my weight loss path. I was figuring that if I can lose, a very reasonable, 2 pounds a week I’ll weight 160 pounds by the end of the year. And that is something I can totally do!

Wahoo! to beginning (yet again).