New Beginning

I’ve been dreading this day… Ultimate Loser has started again.  I feel like I’m starting from scratch.  For every reason and no reason at all I’ve regained a significant amount of weight.  Add to that my relative lack of movement over the last 4 months and what we have here golks is me beginning all over again at day one.

I have offically gained 46 pounds in 4 months.  This is mortifying.  It also indicates just how hard the next 8 weeks are going to be.  I’m even anticipating to revisit the blistered feet and sobbing of my first UL.  And to make it worse, more than anything in the whole wide world, I don’t want to do it again.  It is hard and I don’t feel like I have the strength of energy to face it.  However, getting up at 5 am every morning and being put through the wringer for an hour will likely be a picnic to the mental challenge I’m facing.

I must figure out the how’s and why’s of this backsliding and I’m really quite good at not looking very deeply at myself.  Thankfully I have some wonderful friends who are willing to listen as I process things out loud and I have this space to write in.  I’m optimistic that between the two some progress will be made.

Today we just prepared for the next 2 months.  We set up our dotfit account (no more bodybugg–and I’m selling mine if anyone is interested), took our ‘before’ pictures and were prepped by our trainer, Natalie, for what was to come.  Tomorrow comes the pain…

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7 Comments »

  1. wyogranny Said:

    As Dan Rather would say “courage!” As I would say Damn! As you both say and do face it and win! Love and prayers are with you from us in Wyoming.

  2. athleticme Said:

    You can totally do this, Karen. Natalie warned me tonight that there may be days during the next 8 weeks where I will probably not like her very much. Scary! 🙂 See you in the a.m.

  3. superflychic Said:

    what’s a bodybugg? If it’s a treadmill I totally want it! Yes, we have a treadmill, but you power it yourself and it’s on an angle, both of which bother me to the point of not using it. Good luck Karen! I’m sure you’ve heard this before, but when you have a choice of apple flavored water and Dr. Pepper, just pick water. Don’t think about it, just do it. That, and exercise, is how I lost 20 lbs and maintained it.

  4. Teresa Said:

    Hey, K. Killer workout this a.m., eh? My face is still red. You did great, though. I don’t know that they will get any tougher than this. :o)

    I am so glad you are doing this with me. It would be hard to face without you. WE CAN DO IT!

  5. Jen Said:

    Good luck! How is Natalie??? You will have to fill me in on the new system now that they aren’t doing body bugg anymore. I wish you the best of luck. I am going to pretend I am playing @ home, though it really isn’t the same.

  6. Lucrecia Said:

    I think many of us are guilty of these dangerous mind games. Especially when we focus on a specified time frame or challenge. We gear up by eating whatever we want and mentally preparing for the challenge. And through out the challenge or time frame we focus on that end date like something magical will happen and it will suddenly be easy to not gain and maintain.

    All of the stumbles make you stronger and more prepared to make a lasting and meaningful change!

  7. Thanks everyone. The support is meaningful to me and it’s nice to know that people are reading these words. I hope to make some significant steps this next 8 weeks and am grateful for your encouragement.


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